I like writing first thing in the morning.

I notice I crave it.
I didn’t get a great night’s sleep.

My cats were parkouring all over the living room they found some sort of Giant mammoth bohemian Cockroach creature and brought it inside to play, and were having the time of their lives chasing it all over the house.

I got myself to bed early, but how do you teach cats to respect your bedtime boundaries?

Best laid plans…
I was worried the kids may not have slept well because of it.
(Skyler has a friend sleeping over due to the rains their road was impassable so he’ll be going to school with us)
I had music on in their room and the AC to drown out any noise.

I checked the time thinking….

Maybe it’s almost morning?

It was 1:48 AM
I leave my room to deal with the cats…

Can’t find them… face palm, go back to bed.

It was a tossing and turning kind of night.

I started to hear noises from the boys room and realized Spotify was no longer playing the sleepy kids play list I had set…

It was now on the rainy day play list…

I hoped they were solid sleepers…shoot!!

It was playing “I sure can smell the rain” By Black Hawk….

That’s not bad, but before that they had to make it through….

“It’s raining Tacos!” Face palm, and before that… “She’s my kind of rain”,
“The Rain”
“Lightning buts and rain”
” Songs about rain”
“The rains”
“Texas Rain”
“I love a rainy night”
“Every storm (runs out of rain)”
“Raining slowly”
“Can you stand the rain”
“Make it rain”
“Learn to let go”
“Virginia Rain”
“Save it for a rainy day”
“Rain is a good thing”, and “Bring on the rain”…. Luckily no one wet the bed!! That was not supposed to be the bedtime playlist, although we did have a lot of rain…
The boys got up, showered and to school on time. They said they slept well, didn’t hear anything…not sure how anyone can sleep through…”It’s raining Tacos…” …As I type this…it’s raining Tacos!

Even though I didn’t sleep well, I was still feeling much better today…and you know I think the main factor was work-related.

Yesterday evening I received a call from my candidate who is starting a new job Monday. And it was like I could breathe, such relief.

She is eager to begin work Monday and she’s not stuck in a cave following her vacation. I literally felt the anxiety melt away. I know she will do amazing things for the company, and I can’t wait to follow her success. Eventually, I will get paid…but so much better than having a disappointed client and having to restart the whole process…. or having to get a search party and go out exploring caves and hiking trails for my awesome candidate. Yes, I’m that committed.

She had been on vacation and I didn’t know the exact dates of her vacation. So when she hadn’t responded to my messages and calls checking in, I figured she’s just still on vacation…but then I started thinking…if something did happen, no one would think to contact me. We try and get ahead of situations in recruiting if we can…we can’t always. Sometimes life just happens. For now, I’m wishing her lots of green lights and warm welcomes for her first day.

I wonder what the pie chart of people’s anxieties would be. Since the job market has been slowing down, this had me nervous because I am everything for Skyler. So I don’t like when there are unknowns, if I can really make it all work…but looks like we are good.
Thanks Universe!

This does make me wonder though if I really am cut out for the ups and downs of 100% commission, it can take it’s toll on one’s nerves, on my nerves….

But…then I remember…. mom life….single mom life…. it requires flexibility – like today was a half day at Skyler’s school…
Or all the unexpected moments, injuries or sicknesses, or electricity outages…or days I’m giving massages…flexibility is key.

Skyler is at the age of playdates and sleepovers…I never thought we’d have mid-week school day sleepovers…but we do, Life happens. You roll with it.

Skyler’s friend’s mom was dealing with obstacles this week, her husband was out of town, and she said. ‘I knew things would happen while he was away, they always do!” One kid was sick, and while taking the other to school the rain had caused a semi to overturn on the road making passing super risky…and then it rained even more.
I’m glad we were in a position to help. Logistics can be a stressor when you are on your own. I always want to have that community if I run into trouble, so I’m glad we can be that.

There is an app called Blind.

If you don’t have a high salary with a good potential for upward mobility…don’t visit the app…it will be depressing.

People who work at mostly tech companies talk about their work using an anonymous ID, so they can ask and share things people normally wouldn’t reveal about their role or company.

Posters and commenters talk about all sorts of things. As a recruiter I follow it to know what’s happening in the industry. Everyone who posts MUST share their total compensation. There is a lot of talk about compensation packages.

Anyway, some guy posts he’s like 27, and he was high risk investing and lost his savings of $300k. He has a salary of $150k, still has his job…and he wants to give up on life, because he’s so far behind now and can’t catchup.

First of all, I realize that financial losses are devastating, but, it’s horrible to think we put so much value on keeping up with certain numbers that someone would think their only option is to give up. And that they were no longer finding joy in other areas of life.

Someone from Google posted responding to his post saying ‘Dude, there are single mother’s out there with no support working dead-end jobs, and they keep going.’

And it’s true, if you are a mom, you have no other choice but to just keep going…even if you are someone else’s example of how life could be worse….

I supposed it’s all about how you look at or how you tell your story.

I could have said there is a young and up and coming professional at 27 that just hit $150k comp and the story would sound quite hopeful.

I could talk about the single mom living life as an adventure with her amazing kid in the beach jungle town in Costa Rica, and the story looks much different then one used to convince a guy his life really isn’t that bad….so what story do you tell yourself about your life?

It’s surprising how many people that have a significant net worth, to the point that they could do anything they want to do… have fallen out of love with life.

I commented on the post and suggested that this guy try and see the world from other perspectives, visiting people with less, not comparing himself with those in his current crowd, travel to countries where people don’t have it all, get in nature, reset. It’s not a joke that comparison is the thief of joy.

It’s crazy to think that the same anxiety that plagues someone who feels like they can’t do anything, they are so limited, whether that’s financially…. the same anxiety can plague a person who could do anything, but doesn’t know what to do because they could do anything, and they don’t want to screw it up.

I think it’s so important to have things to look forward to in life. To remember what you love and hold it close. To enjoy all that you can….and find that balance between what pays the bills and realizing life while you are here to live it.

Today after dropping of the boys at school. I witnesses some special moments I will share with you in two short videos.

The first video is a loud noise. Take a guess at what you think it is. Turn UP the volume on this one! What do you think that is??

Little hint. The neighborhood is called Cantarana

Falcon

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